Living in the present and the choices we make!
Living in the present and the choices we make!
Sorry it has been a few week, so many life situations! Some beautiful and some heartbreaking. I am not feeling too bloggy but I feel I need to clear the drain so to speak or get typing! So forgive me if this blog is full of ciaos with little structure.
Let me start by talking about running/walking a 10k. It was an awesome experience. I tried to train for it and I will be honest my diet, exercise and pre-running was not where it should have been. BUT when I look back at that day March 3rd it was one of the best days EVER! I spent the morning with my best friend, my heart and my soul, My Husband! We walked the Skyway Bridge in St.Pete Fl, and we ran when we could. We held hands, laughed talked and lived 100% in the present. We seen the sunrise, the dolphins jumping and enjoyed each breath we took. We kissed at every photo opp and even though at the end we were exhausted it was an incredible time. I am very thankful my body allowed me to enjoy that moment.
Next stop was a vacation for my husband and I. Now if you are my family or a friend who knows Dan and I, than you know that the only 2 vacations that we have ever been on were the 2 trips with the kids that we were given by Children's Dream Fund and Make a Wish. And if you have a child with cancer you know these trips are a beautiful blessing but you only get them if your child is battling a terminal illness. So as much as you try to relax your still looking at your bald or sick baby thinking will this be their last trip? Anyway all the boo woo's aside. I have been blessed by God and my children are still here and now it is time to relax and enjoy what a vacation is all about.
Dan and I went to St Augustine, Fl. It was a stay-cation since we live here. PLUS we have been married 10 years, so happy anniversary to us!! We traveled to our destination and we were true tourist. We laughed, ate some great food, took naps, toured around, held hands, walked, rode a trolley, visited many special places. It was a ton of fun, we lived in the moment and 100% in the present. I am very thankful God gave me a body healthy enough to enjoy all these thing on this vacation. My sight, my sense of touch, my sense of taste, ability to walk and to talk. These are the things we take for granted, we do not mean to not notice these beautiful gifts but it happens.
Monday rolls around and its back to work, is that a bad thing? No because that mean God has blessed me with a job/career. We have money from that job that allows us to have a beautiful house, cars, food and all the other blessings and comforts money allows us. But I quickly found myself in the past, work was backed up and the stress quickly returned! But why...Because I let it!! It's my choice how I feel everyday. I can choose to live in the moment of focus on thing I can not control in the past or in the future. Well about mid week I decided to shake it off answer as many emails as I could and live day by day, which at work that means 8-10 hours at a time period. Back to 100% in the present!
We all know the saying "Rome wasn't built in a day" and "It takes a village". Well in this life we are given a path and several roads along this path and it is our journey and our choice. Work included, I am a bit of a hard charger or bull in a china shop. I like to set the bar and exceed it, that is my nature and clearly the path I have picked. BUT, when you work for a big company you have to realize you really only control your piece of the puzzle. You can support and help the other puzzle pieces but you can ONLY CONTROL your piece!! That is a hard task for me, but with self awareness and focusing on the present it gets easier to do. For this I am thankful, thankful for my brain and my thoughts.
Next stop on my journey was a 24 hour visit with my Mom and Bob (mom's boyfriend). Did I mention they are both 85 years young!! A month ago today Bob was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. We are all heartbroken, my mom and his children are hurting so bad and today we find him currently in the end stages of this terrible disease, he sleeps most of the time and seems to be very much at peace with little pain now. I hope this is God's gift to him, no pain and a peaceful end with his children around him. This is a very sad present situation but let me point out something about Bob. There wasn't a day that went by that he didn't live, love and laugh! He seen and/or talked to his children daily, sleet or snow he made it to my moms. They danced, went to the casino, went to dinner or lunch out, sang songs and lived in the present like everyday was the last. He gave my mom a life a different type of life she didn't have before. They lived in the present!!! Bob would say to me on my visits to see them. "Kid don't let life stress you out! Get of your butt out of the house, eat the food, laugh at the stupid jokes and sing until you cant sing anymore, that's what your mom and I do" and he would shake his head and give me that little cocky Bob grin. My last day seeing Bob before I flew home I hugged him and told him I loved him an thanked him for being so wonderful to my mother and he said to me "Tell Dan to take care of you and you take care of him" .....
My message to you in this blog is this. We can re-live the past, but its in the past we can only learn from it. The future is but vision or a dream. BUT THE PRESENT IS NOW, the air you breath, the sunrise you see, the birds you hear. The love of the people around you. The fork in the road that you get to choose. It's your choice, its your present. Live it!!
Have a great week, much love. Josie
Sorry it has been a few week, so many life situations! Some beautiful and some heartbreaking. I am not feeling too bloggy but I feel I need to clear the drain so to speak or get typing! So forgive me if this blog is full of ciaos with little structure.
Let me start by talking about running/walking a 10k. It was an awesome experience. I tried to train for it and I will be honest my diet, exercise and pre-running was not where it should have been. BUT when I look back at that day March 3rd it was one of the best days EVER! I spent the morning with my best friend, my heart and my soul, My Husband! We walked the Skyway Bridge in St.Pete Fl, and we ran when we could. We held hands, laughed talked and lived 100% in the present. We seen the sunrise, the dolphins jumping and enjoyed each breath we took. We kissed at every photo opp and even though at the end we were exhausted it was an incredible time. I am very thankful my body allowed me to enjoy that moment.
Next stop was a vacation for my husband and I. Now if you are my family or a friend who knows Dan and I, than you know that the only 2 vacations that we have ever been on were the 2 trips with the kids that we were given by Children's Dream Fund and Make a Wish. And if you have a child with cancer you know these trips are a beautiful blessing but you only get them if your child is battling a terminal illness. So as much as you try to relax your still looking at your bald or sick baby thinking will this be their last trip? Anyway all the boo woo's aside. I have been blessed by God and my children are still here and now it is time to relax and enjoy what a vacation is all about.
Dan and I went to St Augustine, Fl. It was a stay-cation since we live here. PLUS we have been married 10 years, so happy anniversary to us!! We traveled to our destination and we were true tourist. We laughed, ate some great food, took naps, toured around, held hands, walked, rode a trolley, visited many special places. It was a ton of fun, we lived in the moment and 100% in the present. I am very thankful God gave me a body healthy enough to enjoy all these thing on this vacation. My sight, my sense of touch, my sense of taste, ability to walk and to talk. These are the things we take for granted, we do not mean to not notice these beautiful gifts but it happens.
Monday rolls around and its back to work, is that a bad thing? No because that mean God has blessed me with a job/career. We have money from that job that allows us to have a beautiful house, cars, food and all the other blessings and comforts money allows us. But I quickly found myself in the past, work was backed up and the stress quickly returned! But why...Because I let it!! It's my choice how I feel everyday. I can choose to live in the moment of focus on thing I can not control in the past or in the future. Well about mid week I decided to shake it off answer as many emails as I could and live day by day, which at work that means 8-10 hours at a time period. Back to 100% in the present!
We all know the saying "Rome wasn't built in a day" and "It takes a village". Well in this life we are given a path and several roads along this path and it is our journey and our choice. Work included, I am a bit of a hard charger or bull in a china shop. I like to set the bar and exceed it, that is my nature and clearly the path I have picked. BUT, when you work for a big company you have to realize you really only control your piece of the puzzle. You can support and help the other puzzle pieces but you can ONLY CONTROL your piece!! That is a hard task for me, but with self awareness and focusing on the present it gets easier to do. For this I am thankful, thankful for my brain and my thoughts.
Next stop on my journey was a 24 hour visit with my Mom and Bob (mom's boyfriend). Did I mention they are both 85 years young!! A month ago today Bob was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. We are all heartbroken, my mom and his children are hurting so bad and today we find him currently in the end stages of this terrible disease, he sleeps most of the time and seems to be very much at peace with little pain now. I hope this is God's gift to him, no pain and a peaceful end with his children around him. This is a very sad present situation but let me point out something about Bob. There wasn't a day that went by that he didn't live, love and laugh! He seen and/or talked to his children daily, sleet or snow he made it to my moms. They danced, went to the casino, went to dinner or lunch out, sang songs and lived in the present like everyday was the last. He gave my mom a life a different type of life she didn't have before. They lived in the present!!! Bob would say to me on my visits to see them. "Kid don't let life stress you out! Get of your butt out of the house, eat the food, laugh at the stupid jokes and sing until you cant sing anymore, that's what your mom and I do" and he would shake his head and give me that little cocky Bob grin. My last day seeing Bob before I flew home I hugged him and told him I loved him an thanked him for being so wonderful to my mother and he said to me "Tell Dan to take care of you and you take care of him" .....
My message to you in this blog is this. We can re-live the past, but its in the past we can only learn from it. The future is but vision or a dream. BUT THE PRESENT IS NOW, the air you breath, the sunrise you see, the birds you hear. The love of the people around you. The fork in the road that you get to choose. It's your choice, its your present. Live it!!
Have a great week, much love. Josie
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