Life..Death..Happiness! What does this all mean?
Well I know it has been 2 months..So much for my daily blog! I will shoot for weekly blog posts because that is much more realistic. After a much crazy month, I think I am ready to get back at it. So here I go!!
Let's start with Happiness.. What defines happiness?? This is different for everyone. Why? Happiness is based on perspective, life situations, health situations, or it can be a financial situations. It is up to you.. It's your happiness, right?
Now for me it has always been the chase for financial freedom, that so called freedom that comes from the financial rewards of working hard and doing the very best job you can do. But, is that really what I need to find my happiness? I have questioned my skills, my abilities, and even my thought processes. And guess what! I landed an awesome job with a great company who make me feel like family. I am financially rewarded and respected but it didn't make me as happy as I thought it would. Why?? Is there something wrong with me and the way I think? Could it be in the 47 years on this planet I have been wrong all along !
Well over the past few weeks I have sought validation and looked for answers to my happiness. Tried to please the world (or those around me anyway) and guess what, it didn't make a difference. I push hard, work hard, and I loved hard. But still where is happiness?? I will admit I battle with myself in my mind, and how do I make my existence a happy beautiful place. I question my decision and often my thoughts. This is human nature right?? Well I am sure I am not alone?? Am I??
Well the past 10 days have been eye opening, some very special people have passed away. My mom's sister and My Aunt Vera, My sister-in-laws Gina's father Bill, and A dear friend and previous co-worker Christine's husband David. These awesome people were Parents, Grandparents, Aunt's and Uncles, Husband's and Wives. Great people, wonderful people and where did they find their happiness? For my Aunt is was her love of God and her Children. For Bill it was also his Faith and Family. David loved his wife so, I would see the twinkle in his eye when he made her that special salad after work. I am sure you are thinking where is she going with this, just stay with me.
Well happiness is not always a goal, a dream or a wish. It could be a moment, a memory, or a thought. Happiness is what you make it to be. Well let me share this with you, I have a very philosophical co-worker/boss and when we get together we talk a lot, about a lot of things. We share stories about our families, work, goals and dreams. The past 2 days we have discussed vacation locations, spectacular places to visit, sites to see. After all the talking and sharing, every thought led me to Dan! My mind would drift away to Motorcycle rides with Dan's, Dinner's with Dan (even at the cheapest greasy spoon), Walk's with Dan, Tears with Dan.. All of it every little moment, memory and thought was Dan.
Now if you really know me, you know my kids are and have always been my #1 priority and responsibility. I take great pride in my children and all they have been through. They are also my happiness and greatest accomplishment. I am very proud of them both.
BUT MY true real time happiness, my safe place, my selfish place is with my husband and the love of my life..Dan's makes me happy, he makes me angry, he makes me sad, but most of all he is my truest form of happiness..For richer or poorer, in sickness and in health..In Life and In Death he is my happiness. I love you Dan Schell !!
Peace and Love,
JoEllen
Let's start with Happiness.. What defines happiness?? This is different for everyone. Why? Happiness is based on perspective, life situations, health situations, or it can be a financial situations. It is up to you.. It's your happiness, right?
Now for me it has always been the chase for financial freedom, that so called freedom that comes from the financial rewards of working hard and doing the very best job you can do. But, is that really what I need to find my happiness? I have questioned my skills, my abilities, and even my thought processes. And guess what! I landed an awesome job with a great company who make me feel like family. I am financially rewarded and respected but it didn't make me as happy as I thought it would. Why?? Is there something wrong with me and the way I think? Could it be in the 47 years on this planet I have been wrong all along !
Well over the past few weeks I have sought validation and looked for answers to my happiness. Tried to please the world (or those around me anyway) and guess what, it didn't make a difference. I push hard, work hard, and I loved hard. But still where is happiness?? I will admit I battle with myself in my mind, and how do I make my existence a happy beautiful place. I question my decision and often my thoughts. This is human nature right?? Well I am sure I am not alone?? Am I??
Well the past 10 days have been eye opening, some very special people have passed away. My mom's sister and My Aunt Vera, My sister-in-laws Gina's father Bill, and A dear friend and previous co-worker Christine's husband David. These awesome people were Parents, Grandparents, Aunt's and Uncles, Husband's and Wives. Great people, wonderful people and where did they find their happiness? For my Aunt is was her love of God and her Children. For Bill it was also his Faith and Family. David loved his wife so, I would see the twinkle in his eye when he made her that special salad after work. I am sure you are thinking where is she going with this, just stay with me.
Well happiness is not always a goal, a dream or a wish. It could be a moment, a memory, or a thought. Happiness is what you make it to be. Well let me share this with you, I have a very philosophical co-worker/boss and when we get together we talk a lot, about a lot of things. We share stories about our families, work, goals and dreams. The past 2 days we have discussed vacation locations, spectacular places to visit, sites to see. After all the talking and sharing, every thought led me to Dan! My mind would drift away to Motorcycle rides with Dan's, Dinner's with Dan (even at the cheapest greasy spoon), Walk's with Dan, Tears with Dan.. All of it every little moment, memory and thought was Dan.
Now if you really know me, you know my kids are and have always been my #1 priority and responsibility. I take great pride in my children and all they have been through. They are also my happiness and greatest accomplishment. I am very proud of them both.
BUT MY true real time happiness, my safe place, my selfish place is with my husband and the love of my life..Dan's makes me happy, he makes me angry, he makes me sad, but most of all he is my truest form of happiness..For richer or poorer, in sickness and in health..In Life and In Death he is my happiness. I love you Dan Schell !!
Peace and Love,
JoEllen
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